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SV-101 - The Empath's Dilemma - My name is John Rieger but I also go by my pen name, Shenreed. I’m an empath, so I know what an empath goes through. Years ago, when my personal and small business world collapsed, I became frustrated with my life and traditional dogma and began my spiritual journey, my search for truth, love, and the meaning of life.
My metaphysical journey is an eclectic blend of science and spirituality. where I’n both the observer and the subject, and when I think I have a solution, I submerge myself in the experience to know if my hypothesis is accurate and valid. After years of trial and error, I discovered that my so-called negative feelings and emotions were not the cause of my problems and issues, or my flaws or weakness, but were my power, and were directly related to my denials of them. The problem with denial was that my problems and issues were being reflected to me. When I ended my denials and replaced self-hatred with self-love, my reality shifted. I was excited to share the tools and insights I experienced and subsequently wrote and published three books, as well as creating my website and blogging.
The intent of these vlogs is to help other empaths understand and heal their emotions and issues and to empower themselves. While we all have different experiences, the so-called “negative emotions” are universal. Some of the issues empaths have are that they believe they have to control their feelings and emotions to make others happy an be accepted. They are also targeted by unloving Narcissists using gaslighting techniques to manipulate and control them.
Modern medicines “mental health” approach is of no use to an empath. The approach they use is basically cognitive therapy to maintain a “positive” attitude and failing that, they put you on prescription drugs. With no real help, empaths turn to food, alcohol, cigarettes, drugs, work, exercise, pets, hobbies, religion, etc, to help them cope with their reality.
Empaths have gifts and talents and by far, the most important one is the ability to feel the presence of loving and unloving energy. They also have the ability to feel what another person is experiencing and feeling, and often take on these emotions and then feel drained. They also possess psychic abilities like clairvoyance, clairaudience, etc., but fear to share them.
These are just some of the issues and topics I’ll be addressing in my vlogs that I hope will serve as an inspiration and a self-help tutorial to enable Empaths to begin to understand and heal and empower themselves. I plan to host them on YouTube and BiitChute and my websites. For quick reference, they will have a title and an ID number. I also plan on making them from 3-5 minutes in length, as I’d like them to be more of a “food for thought” tutorial where you need to begin to put the pieces of the puzzle together for yourself.
SV-102G - Intent to Heal - To heal and empower yourself, you have to be willing to do what you’ve never done before, and includes doing the opposite of what you have been doing. You need to challenge everything you believe to be true, especially about love, life and your feelings and emotions. Intent has to be real and heartfelt, or it’s just an act.
SV-103F - Fear of Water - Fear is like a door, behind which are lost parts of your emotional being. Most fears can be traced back to an unresolved traumatic experience, where you denied and suppressed the feelings and emotion you were having in the moment. Later, and until the issue is resolved, avoiding facing your fear creates anxiety and also limits your and others life experiences. Opening the door takes love and courage and with that intent, healing is possible.
SV-104F(2) - Fear of Water - When one has a fear of say, “water,” water is not the problem. The problem is the unresolved traumatic “experience” that you had with water. How you heal the fear is to have an experience that will shock and activate you. When that happens, if you can have the awareness that it isn’t the “same” experience that traumatized you, that it’s an opportunity for you to re-live that shocking moment and feel and express everything that was denied, healing can happen. Later, you will have another experience with water, but this time you will have the awareness that you are not “re-acting,” but are “responding” to the experience.
SV-105G - People Pleasers- A common trait of empaths is that they go through life putting other peoples feelings and needs ahead of theirs in order to make them happy, believing that that makes them a kind and loving person.
SV-106H - Heartbreak and Grief - Grief is the feeling of loss, of a person, place or things, There are several aspects involved in grief and heartbreak, the first being shock and disbelief, followed by denial, pain, remorse, guilt, anger, bargaining, and then acceptance. After the initial process, it starts all over again but not in a similar pattern. Underlying heartbreak is an attachment to the person, place or thing that fulfilled you, that gave you pleasure or happiness in some form or another. Attachments are not loving, while having a connection is loving.
SV-107A - Anger and Rage - There are many forms of anger and rage. Most of the anger and rage that is expressed is denied anger and rage. While you may be a person of loving essence, when you are in denial, the anger and rage that you express is unloving. You do have loving anger and rage, but the difference between the two is that unloving anger and rage wants to attack and control another, whereas loving anger and rage is there to protect you from unloving anger and rage.
SV-108G - I Am - Empaths forget that they’re a spiritual being having a physical experience and are not what society (the system) identifies them as. By buying into a false identity, like “I am a carpenter” etc, you set yourself up to the belief that what you are experiencing is who you are, and in that, you judge your self-worth by how much money you earn to make a living.
SV-109G - I Am - Worth and Identity - Society bases ones identity and worth on their vocation and financial status. Becoming aware that this does not define who and what you are, is an important step to self-empowerment.
SV-110H - Trying to be Accepted - The most common heartbreak for an Empath is the lack of love, of being accepted. Empaths try to fit in, but unbeknownst to them, they’re trying to fit in with people that are not loving. The real problem is that you’re afraid to challenge the unloving people that you are trying to fit in with, that are controlling and manipulating you. Instead, you try to be like them and that doesn’t feel good either.
SV-111F - Dealing with Aggression - As an empath, part of your fear and terror is that you are unloved, rejected, threatened and attacked, just to name a few issues. Those that are attacking you might be physically aggressive or passive aggressive. Their attack is two-fold. One is to have you activated into your denied fear so that they can manipulate and control you so that they can feed on the love energy that you are denying. And the second reason is that as long as you are in denial and fear their disproval and wrath, you will not express the love that you are, as the presence of love terrifies them.
SV-112A - Identifying Denied Rage - Denied anger and rage is the most common form of expression. The anger and rage that is easily identified is where there are verbal threats and/or physical violence. What is harder to identify is when it’s disguised as passive aggressive, where they “act” loving, kind and nice, but underneath it all is their wanting to manipulate and control you. For an empaths that feels the unlovingness, what they need to do, but what is also one of the hardest things to do, is to give yourself the benefit of the doubt by asking the person, “What is your intent?” Doing that clears the air and their control over you. Narcissists are great ones at using passive aggressive techniques.
SV-113G - I Am - Government - I begin to explain how the government, through your birth certificate that your parents felt obliged to submit to the government, controls you. Your birth name ie, “Jane Doe”, appears on all government documents as “JANE DOE.” The Government is a fictitious entity, an artificial construct and not a person. The secret to the success in being society controllers, is that they have made you believe that Jane Doe is JANE DOE, and that you have to comply to their rules and mandates.
SV-114G - I Am - Religion - When you were born, you weren’t born with any religious beliefs or traditions; they were taught to you by your parents and others. Religion, like government, is organized. Religion tries to be a substitute for spirituality and as such, has rules and Belief Systems (BS) that they use to control you. When you identify yourself as etc., “I Am a Catholic,” you accept their BS as a part of who you are, and not as something that you are experiencing.
SV-115H - Betrayal, Doubt and Denial - Betrayal doesn’t just come to you out of the blue. You have doubts and suspicions, but instead of expressing yourself, you deny and carry on hoping that your intuition is wrong. When a feeling of doubt comes up, your mind is consciously aware of the feeling but denies it. The feeling comes up three times in total. When it’s denied expression the third time, like in the game of baseball, you’re out, your mind is in the gap, and it goes on auto-pilot according to its imprints, programs and beliefs. All this happens in the blink of an eye. The key to healing is in spotting and ending one’s denials.
SV-116A - Denied Terror & Confrontation - When people are activated into their issues, they go into denial and re-act by either going into a fight, flight or give up mode. If your imprint is to fight, as soon as you’re activated, your denied anger and rage will be triggered. Hidden under your denied anger and rage is your denied terror; what you are afraid of that triggered you. For an empath, a confusing issue is how do you respond to a psychopath coming at you, or a person that you know is loving, but has been activated and is in denied anger and rage.
SV-117F - Fear of Authority - Besides fear of physical people, places and things, empaths also have fear of non-physical things, one being the word, authority. It begins with our parents, siblings, relatives, friends and moves out for there. Using the present Covid plan-demic as an example of how the government, medical and media use the words “authority” and “expert” as a tool to create the illusion that they have power over those that buy into their fear-mongering tactics, that manipulate herd mentality to follow their dictates.
SV-118H - Past and Expectation - When dealing with heartbreak, besides the issue of attachment is one of expectation, and projections. Your point of power is in the present moment, but if your consciousness is in the past, lamenting about what you lost, or projecting into the future and lost hopes, dreams and desire, what you could have had what you expected. Life is a journey, like a river flowing where time and space are moving. What you experience in one moment is not the same, as in the next moment as time and space have moved on, and you can’t go back. Since birth, we have been taught and programmed to believe that our happiness and self-worth depends on people, place and things. When they are taken away, we feel lost and heartbroken.
SV-119G - Saving people (1-2) - As an empath, you have the innate ability to hear, see and know what others don’t hear, see or know. The other thing is that Empaths want to help others that they see in trouble or about to get into trouble. It’s a frustrating position, and one that is needed in order to “let go” of those that don’t want to see or hear the truth.
SV-120G - Saving People (2-2) - It’s another aspect of “letting go” and releasing ones “attachments’ to the person they feel needs them. When people finally become aware of their circumstances, they need to accept responsibility for their initial choices and deal with the consequences as such. Being in denial, they will try to use the ”oh poor me” tactic to get an empath to do their bidding.
SV-121A - Rage in a position of Power - Present reality on Earth is actually a dual reality, with loving Essence that desires love, life, truth and freedom, and unloving essence that desires, control, denial, compression and death. It’s this unloving Rage essence that has been, and is, in a position of power, but what is not known is that they are terrified of the power of love, and hence their need to be in control of loving essence. Loving essence tries to be nice to these “otherkin” hoping they will change, and so you have the predator and victim dual reality.
SV-122G - The Mental Health Program - The medical establishment is of no real help to an empath. Psychiatrists and psychologists treat emotions as if they were constructs or aspects of the mind and hence, they use mental based techniques to try to treat emotional issues. Cognitive therapy and having a “positive” attitude and shrugging off (denying) any “so-called” negative feelings and emotions is their solution. If that doesn’t work, they’re quick to either prescribe mind-numbing drugs, or ones that create a high and a false sense of well-being. For true healing, one needs to deal with the mental, emotional and physical issues as they are all connected. Any feelings and emotions that the mind denies, have no place to go except in the body, where they create distress and dis-ease
SV-123G - New Age Religion - Examines the New Age movement as another form of religion in that real feelings and emotions are denied, in order to be positive and feel good. Its agenda is also similar to the “mental health” establishment, where they aren’t looking for the cause of one’s so-called “negative” feelings and emotions, but rather address the symptoms with the use of drugs, or cognitive therapy or whatever they can use to make money.
SV-124G - The Common Thread - My journey is a search for truth, love and the meaning of life. While reading numerous books, and coming across part-truths that felt real, something was always lacking. I was searching for something that would connect them, a common thread. When I was introduced to the first book in the RUOW (Right Use Of Will) series by Ceanne DeRohan, I realized what was missing, what I wasn’t seeing. What was common to everything was denial, and that totally changed my journey.
SV-125G - Relationships - Whether you admit it or not; empaths are love starved, they want to be loved and accepted. They are attracted to another person that they feel completes or compliments them. In most cases, they attract a narcissist that isn’t real in their feelings and emotions, but is good at acting the part. Being in denial, is what sets an empath up to give their power away.
SV-126G - Guilt - Guilt is a presence and is not to be confused with love. Guilt has been in the place of love for eons. All religions are based on guilt. Love and truth does not mind being questioned, but unlovingness, guilt and denial do. Christian beliefs in traditions of Santa Claus and the Easter bunny are lies you tell your children. If you told them the truth, guilt would be on you, telling you that you’re unloving.
SV-127G - Social Denials - Denial is so prevalent in society that most are not even aware what denial is. If you are not expressing your real feelings and emotions in the NOW moment when you feel them, you’re in denial. As an example, we set ourselves up to be in denial with our standard social greeting… “Hi, how are you?” The standard come back is… “Oh, Fine, and you?” To that, they reply, “Oh fine.“ And with that, both are living in denial.
SV-128G - Fake, explaining & real emotions - Fake or false emotions are expressed when a person is activated into one of their fears and they go into either a fight, flight or give up mode. These emotions are aligned with the false judgments that the mind has, that thinks this experience is the same as the original experience. Explaining is just that, re-telling an experience with the false emotions that are associated with it. Real emotions are rarely expressed in adults and you are more likely to see them in a child.
SV-129G - Meditation - Mini Healings - Meditation as practised by Eastern religions and New Agers is based in denial; denial of any so-called negative feelings and emotions that surface. In the course of my journey, I found that meditation could be used as a tool for healing and self-empowerment, but only if it was done in non-denial. Some of the meditation “journeys”, as I called them, were: visualization, animal guides, clearing your astral attachments. past-lives, life guides and higher self, channelling, healing issues and denied emotions, Shamanic and Multi-dimensional journeys.
SV-130G - Guilt and Denial held in the Body - I share a personal experience with a Reiki Master in a one-on-one session that involved a traumatic childhood experience, and why and how denied emotional expression and body pain, combined with guilt have a lasting negative effect on the body, and how it can be healed when the denied emotions are expressed and the guilt attachment is released.
SV-131A - Rage - Release and the Pumpkin - I share a personal experience dealing with denied anger and rage and the beginning of healing it. It took me another four years to understand and heal it, (my anger and rage) that was because before I could do that, I needed to heal my fear of being attacked and also my fear of expressing myself, verbally and physically. These steps or levels were needed to be completed before I was ready to express and begin to heal and understand my real anger and rage. Kind of like learning to crawl, then stand, before I could walk.
SV-132F - Fear of being real - Empaths have a morbid fear of expressing their real feelings and emotions, as it’s socially unacceptable. It’s a learnt behaviour that follows mass consciousness imprints, programs and beliefs, and a moral code of conduct that is essentially the dictates of organized religion, government, the legal system and the media. Being real and expressing the truth is frowned upon, while lies and denials are tolerated. Small children are about the only ones to speak the truth in the moment. It’s easier to be real(er) with strangers than with one’s intimate partner.
SV-133H - Heartbreak - loyalty - Queen - Mass conscious has been programmed to believe that the so-called “common” people need a ruler that needs to be honoured, respected and obeyed. Those that have been indoctrinated, feel “offended” if others don’t do as they do. So now that the Queen is dead, we are all to suddenly show our respects and offer condolences and sympathy. People aren’t aware, or they choose to deny, that the queen and the British Empire, have blood on their hands. Those loyal to the queen have the belief that everyone should show respect for the dead. One would be a hypocrite if they had no respect for the queen and what she stood for when she was alive, to now suddenly be respectful and in mourning. While some would call this public display of loyalty and mourning as heartbreak, it’s not genuine, but a public display of pomp and ceremony to portray the ruling place of power and control as loving.
SV-134A - Passive Aggressive - Narcissists are attracted to Empaths as they can easily be manipulated and controlled, and Empaths are attracted to Narcissists as they’re attracted to their charisma, or they feel they can help and change them. Empaths fall prey to Narcissists that appear to be nice, kind and loving. Once you are hooked, narcissists use four control tactics; they are, intimidation, interrogation, oh poor me, and aloft. Until the empath is aware of their game plan, the words they are saying and the words they are not saying, they remain the hapless victim.
SV-135F - Journaling - Mini Healings - Journaling is also a tool for healing and empowering yourself. It allows you to take mini healing steps as writing and moving the emotions that want to move as you are writing, allows you to express privately what you couldn’t do before. Journaling allows your mind to physically see what it did and didn’t do, and how and why you denied your emotions any expression that was not aligned with the mind’s judgments and beliefs. While it’s hindsight, it gives you conscious awareness that you didn’t have before.
SV-136F - Self sacrifice & fear of expression - It’s natural for Empaths to try to help others, but that also leads to sacrificing oneself in the name of being loving and nice. Another reason for being nice is so that you will not be shunned or attacked. Being loving and nice to others, yet at the same time, hating yourself. People that deny expressing their true expression, I refer to as having the Thumper/Bambi Syndrome, where they deny their real expression just to make others feel comfortable. Suppression of real feelings and emotions creates a fear of emotional expression and a door that one needs to walk through and heal what was denied.
SV-137G - Part-truths and what's hidden - Part-truths, when taken as gospel and not questioned, are what gets an empath into trouble. Giving others the benefit of the doubt is in denial of giving yourself the benefit of the doubt and asking direct questions when you feel confused or that something is missing, or that you don’t understand. Identifying part-truths are of value if you also look for what is being denied, and what you’re feeling, as that will add to and expand the part-truth.
SV-138F - Protection - As an empath, if you aren’t sacrificing yourself to try to make others happy by giving them what they want so that you’ll not be attacked, you’re also looking for ways to protect yourself from unloving energy and entities. There are numerous ways of trying to protect oneself from unloving energy and entities, including New AGE, where you visualize yourself surrounded in light or in a bubble, or if you’re into native traditions, you do smudging. If you’re into religion, then praying is the method of choice. The thing with these techniques is that they are temporary quick fix sand don’t deal with the real issue. What is your fear? What is your denial? Empaths pickup on the energy of a person or groups, like people in a Mall, that can quickly make an empath feel drained. Once you heal your issues with dealing with unloving energy and entities by ending your denials and expressing what you feel, those experiences no longer activate and drain you.
SV-139F - Fear of the Unknown and Judgments - While we have fears that we recognize, there are also countless fears that are unknown. Fear of the unknown is with every fear that you have. With your fears, your mind has made judgements that it now accepts as truths. Judgments are thought forms attached to the thinker, and as such, they close the mind to new possibilities and experiences. Judgments keep you in a box with no possibility of growth or change. People that have strong “religious” beliefs are a good example of judgments accepted as truth. Dealing with a person that is closed minded and judgmental is like talking to a stone wall. It took me a long time to find out that what I believed was the truth… wasn’t. Nothing changes until YOU want to change, and the longer you wait to open your mind, the harder things get.
SV-140A - Protesting the System - A new phrase going around is that people are “woke,” that they realize something is wrong with the system and the system needs to change. The flaw in their thinking is that they need to be the ones who change, and not the system, as the system is based in denial. The protesters don’t realize that they are going “cap in hand,” to the controllers, wanting to control them and make them do as they say. Those in a position of power aren’t going to change what they created as their power is based in denial and MONEY. Money gives them the power to buy things, to buy people, politicians, bureaucrats, doctors, media, military, whatever they want. When the love for power is replaced with the power of love, we’ll see a change. The system is going to crumble and fall, and if you have the mindset that it can change, you are going to go with it. So how do you create a new reality? We need to be the change, but this is something that we have never done before as it’s the opposite of the present reality. I have a few things under my belt, but I’m just scratching the tip of the iceberg and I’ve got a lot more to do.
SV-141A - Self-Hatred and Self-Judgements - While you make think your self-hatred and judgments are not a big deal, but I assure you they are, as you’re hating and cutting off parts of your being. As a Spiritual being having a physical experience you are casting off parts of your emotional Essence. The more you deny, the more you cut off and soon, you’ll remember less and more importantly, you will begin to feel less. Feeling less gives you the illusion that your denials are working, as you aren’t feeling what you used to feel. That’s not the truth as you’re just too stupid to realize that you‘ve lost big parts of yourself. (Been there done that). When you’re ignorant, you don’t know what’s really going on, and you’re just going on your mind’s imprints, programs and beliefs that it thinks is the right thing to do.
These denied emotional parts of you just don’t go away, they are still with you. Emotions are energy and when they can’t be expressed, they have no place to go except into your body where they create dis-ease, pain and illness. Journalling is a good way to begin healing, by writing down all the things that you hate about yourself. When you read what you wrote, you begin to see how you’re really talking to yourself.
SV-142F - Fear of Change - Another aspect of the unknown, is the fear of change, where the mind is caught up in its imprints, programs and beliefs. And because an Empath believes their feelings and emotions are the problem, they are afraid to change, as change is unknown. Denial is comfortable, and so nothing changes. To change, it takes courage and leap of faith to do what you have never done before. Fears come up when you try to change, and denial keeps you frozen in your point-of-view. To change, you have to be willing to lose friends, family and things that you thought are necessary, but in the process, you find and empower yourself.
SV-143G - Battle of the Sexes - Society has this mass-conscious belief that men are physically stronger, rational and logical thinkers, while women are emotional, irrational and the weaker sex. But the real battle is the inner one, between one’s Spirit (male) and Soul (female) aspects of our Being. The Soul (feelings and emotions) are dominated and controlled by the mind, with its logic and reason. This inner battle is also being reflected in the outer battle. To heal this dilemma, Heart (love) presence is required to be the unconditional connection between Spirit and Soul. What we have now, ranges from a partial Heart connection (conditional love), to the complete heartlessness of rage, cold indifference and hate that creates the unloving GAP and conflict between Spirit (Male) and the Soul (Female).
SV-144G - The Grand Paradox - You may think you know what love is, but it’s mainly based on religious beliefs. You may also think you know what denial is, and yes, the most obvious denials are easy to spot, but there’s more. Once you’ve been activated into one of your issues and choose not to react, but to end your denials and respond to what you’re experiencing, you simultaneously experience self-love and also know what denial is, and what it has been doing to your life. You realize that, like the movie “Pleasantville,” your life has been black and white and shades of gray, but now it’s in living colour and there is no going back. I spontaneously share the moment, I experienced unconditional self-love for the first time, and re-cap on what is needed to heal and empower yourself.
SV-145F - Denial - How to Uncover - It’s easier to feel/see other people’s denials than your own, and while that’s a start, the second part of this experience is that you need to ask yourself. What am I denying expressing? If I’m denying, then why... and the questions go on and on. Probably the first on the list is the fear of expression. It’s easier to be real with strangers than with friends, family and one’s intimate partner. Becoming aware of your denials, and choosing to end them, is a step toward self-empowerment.
SV-146F - Attachments - Fear of Loss - Attachments are an issue when trying to heal, as it involves one’s fear of losing that person. Non-denial based Meditation is a great tool to help uncover and release your attachments. Having an “Empathic” partner with the same healing intent, can help in guiding you to finding and releasing your attachments. Attachments are usually found on the throat, heart, or your sexuality, and also on your chakras. Download a free ebook on non-denial based meditations from my website at, www.shenreed.com/book1.html
SV-147F - The Matrix - Symbolic Messages - I discuss the movie, “The Matrix,” and the scene of the woman in the red dress. Society has this fear based mental that there’s an external enemy that needs to be overcome. Seeing the external system as corrupt is but a reflection of what one is doing internally. There are two main control aspects in society, and that’s politics and religion, although there are others. The system uses the power of lies, omission, avoidance and denial, and is the “game” they play to control the masses. Not aware of the unseen role of denial, you’re unconsciously a part of the system. Unless you know how the game works, no matter how you try to win and change the system, you get caught up in a no-win situation. The only way to win is to not play, and to do that, one needs to end their denials and be real, the opposite of the system.