JR-shenreed.comThese books are multifaceted, crossing various topics from New Age, spirituality, metaphysical, psychology, physical issues, relationships, emotions, self-help and more. They were created for those who seek change, and desire to empower themselves, to live life as an expression of who they really are in unconditional love. If you think/feel that your life and this world full of denial, fear and unlovingness is totally opposite what you desire, it is no coincidence that you are here.

To say that the material on this site will be controversial is an understatement as it goes against almost everything society presently believes to be true about emotions, feelings, life and love. But then why wouldn't it be controversial if the desire and goal is the opposite of what is presently being experienced! To empower yourself, you need to be open to challenge everything you believe to be true, especially about love, life, emotions, and feelings, and also be willing to end your denials of all aspects of self. It is my intent that the ideas and works that I share in my books will not only expand your consciousness, but also activate your emotions and touch your Heart.

Book 1 - Journeys from the Heart Centre

Meditation as a tool for healing and self-empowerment


This is the first book in the trilogy, and is a how-to manual and guide for Empaths who desire to understand their feelings and emotions, and to heal and empower them-selves. If you think/feel that your life and this world, full of denial and unlovingness, is the opposite of what you desire, it is no coincidence that you were drawn to this book.

In the course of my journey I discovered that meditation / visualization was a tool that not only expanded my conscious awareness, but could also be used to gain insights into the issues I was experiencing in my life, and provide what I've come to call, mini-healings. Unlike traditional denial based meditation where the intent is to put aside, ignore, and deny your thoughts, feelings and emotions, and enter into a temporary state of bliss, reverie and peace, you now do the opposite. In a non-denial based meditation, the intent is to accept your so-called negative thoughts, feelings and emotions, and give them expression in order to find the underlying causes to the issues in your life and begin the healing process. This book provides examples for all the healing modalities, or tools, as I've come to call them, which I use on my healing journey, as well as providing additional notes, understandings and insights that will assist you on your personal healing journey and your search for truth, love and life.

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Book 2 - My Journey – Three Levels of Healing:

Feeling, healing and understanding Emotions


This is the second book in the trilogy and contains key mental and emotional insights and understandings that I've gained through three profound healing experiences that were the result of finally ending my denials of my Will, (intuition, feelings, emotions and knowing) that were activated by my Minds imprints, programs and beliefs. It covers numerous topics, in particular, those having to do with understanding and unlocking the power of the Divine Feminine aspect of our Being, our Will. It contains key insights into the nature of the human psyche that are vital in not only healing our Emotional Being, but also in unlocking the mystery of our Mind, how it works, and why it does what it does. It also addresses the illusion we presently call reality. What I share will be controversial as it goes against almost everything that our present denial based society believes to be the truth.

It's my intent that as you read the insights and understandings I share, that when you come to reading my healing experiences near the end of the book, that you not only begin to put the pieces of the puzzle together, but also see how you can apply them to heal your issues and empower yourself. This book is yet another tool that will assist you in cutting years of trial and error off your healing journey.

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Book 3 - Journey to the Heart Centre:

Healing begins in the Heart


This is the third book in the trilogy, and is in part, my autobiography that focuses on four years of my journey, (1997 - 2000). This book contains selected entries from my journals along with messages I received from my Spirit guides. My breakthrough came in 1997, when I was led to the RUOW books that made me aware of the unseen role that denial was playing in my life. Obvious denials are easy to spot, but it's the subtle unseen ones that do even more damage to our psyche and directly affect our experiences. My struggle was in trying to put the esoteric concepts from the RUOW books and the messages from my Spirit guides into physical reality. Knowledge and doing are two different things. What I share are the thoughts, feelings and emotions I had, along with the trials and tribulations I went through in ending my denials that culminated with profound healing experiences.

Even though we may be of different gender or race, have different customs, traditions and experiences, the feelings of heartbreak, terror, anger, rage, etc., are the same, and all are related to lack of self-acceptance and self-love. If you're able to feel and see what I was going through and what I was, and was not doing, and relate that to your issues and experiences, it will be another tool for your healing journey.

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A note about these books

For most of my life, I’ve felt that I was always on the outside looking in. I was constantly being told, and naively believing, that something was wrong with me, that I wasn’t like the others. I tried being like the others, talking and acting like them, but I wasn’t good at it because it never felt right, it felt unnatural and unloving. I tried getting them to like and accept me, but the harder I tried to be nice, kind, considerate, compromising, co-operative, compassionate, caring and loving, the emptier I felt, and the more I was criticized and rejected. It seemed that no matter what I said or did, or didn’t say or do, I was always wrong. Feelings of not fitting in and of not being good enough dominated my life experiences, and even when I did stand my ground and dared to be different, to be myself, any success I achieved was only temporary as I’d be attacked mentally, emotionally and even physically, which made me give up on that idea. I was in a constant state of terror and heartbreak, or anger and rage. I was living; no, I was surviving and gradually moving toward self-annihilation, while calling it life.


But now that has all changed, and while I’m still on the outside looking in, I’m no longer trying to be like them. I say on the outside looking in because I now see and feel that the world and reality I was trying to fit into, is one of denial and conditional love, while the world and reality I desire is one that is free of denial and where love is unconditional. So while I’m presently living in two realities, I’m no longer trying to fit in or to make others happy by denying expressing what I really think/feel, and to just be who I am. I’m not saying that I’m free of denial as I still have issues to heal, but my journey and healing experiences thus far have opened my eyes to see the role denial was playing in my life and I no longer choose to play the power and control game that denial creates. So to answer your question as to how this shift occurred is what these three books are all about. What I share in these books is not based on theory or observation, but on personal experience, which I feel is the best teacher.

While on the surface it may appear that this topic is nothing new as there have been thousands of books written on healing emotions and self-empowerment, I assure you that what you will read in these books is not only new and unique, but also controversial. What I share goes against almost everything that society presently believes to be true about emotions, feelings, love and life. Ending denials and exposing secrets is the exact opposite of what everyone is doing and that is not only new, but also frightening as ending denials and exposing secrets is not what is considered normal, appropriate, or even safe. Expressing our true feelings and emotions when they are deemed negative or are not what others want to hear is also contrary to popular opinion. We can only heal our emotions by ending our denials of them, not by controlling and denying them as we have been doing. How can we fix something if we keep denying it’s broken, or keep pushing it away. Ending denials opens the door to unlimited possibilities, where anything and everything is possible. Although many will talk about being open minded, facing their fears, healing their issues and taking their power back, most do not “walk their talk” and when given the mental, emotional and physical opportunity to do so, they will either fight to justify their old beliefs, run, or just give up.

My journey began in 1990, when my personal and business world was collapsing and frustrated with my life and traditional dogma, I began my journey, my search for truth and the meaning of life. My journey is an eclectic blend of science and spirituality, (not religion) as I explore the middle ground between what science can’t see, hear, feel or prove, and thereby states doesn’t exist, and what religion doesn’t want you to find out is real for yourself. As I ventured into the great unknown, I had no guide, no signposts, only my Mind and my feelings, (which I didn't trust) to help me find what was missing in my life. I was blinded by a fog, aware only that I was searching for something but not knowing what I was searching for, how to find it, where to look for it, or to even know if I had found it when I did, and then what to do with it when, and if I found it. I challenged everything I explored and was always asking who, what, where, when, why and how, and when I’d get an answer, I was filled with even more questions. I was looking for the common thread that would link all the information I was exploring together. It wasn’t until 1997 that I found the key and the common thread I was looking for. What I found that was common, was not what was being said, but what was not being said, that was being denied, and that was the turning point in my search.

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It took me eleven years to move from the first stirrings of conscious awareness, the quickening, and the beginning of my search, through the process of finding the tools that I needed, learning how to use them, to finally entering the gap and reaching my awakening point, that of bringing consciousness to the lost parts of me with unconditional self-love. Now, I’m on the journey to integrate this new awareness into the physical world, to heal all aspects of my Being, to “walk my talk” and to bring Heaven to Earth. I know that what I’ve found, others are also searching for and hope to find, and this is what I want to share. What I share is what I have lived and personally experienced and what I’ve experienced, felt and know in my Heart, can’t be studied in any present form and thus the reason for these and future books.

While this trilogy takes you on my journey and gives you the tools, understandings and insights that will assist you and take years off your journey, it is still a journey that you need to desire to experience for yourself. As stated, these books are based on my experiences and to truly understand them, you will have to do more than just read them, you will also have to apply them to your daily life and experience them for yourself to “know” if they are also true for you. Without the application and experience, they are merely mental concepts, knowledge, and words from a book. I’m not asking you to accept what I’m saying as your personal truth, only that you give it a try to see for yourself if what I say works for you. What do you have to lose except your old social and religious beliefs that you are unhappy with anyway, or you wouldn’t be looking for change and have been led to these books. It is my intent that these books will not only expand your consciousness, but also activate your emotions and touch your Heart that you not only resonate with what I’ve shared, but also see and feel how they relate to your life and your issues. What you heal and how quickly will depend entirely on your intent, effort, courage and commitment to healing and empowering yourself. What you personally feel, experience and express in the process of reading these books will also bring you closer to your awakening, to that magical moment when you put unconditional self-love into action and experience and feel the power, peace, movement, balance, freedom and joy it brings when you are living in truth and not denial.


John Rieger

John Rieger aka Shenreed

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